You never promised me that this would be easy
I never knew that anything could be this hard
I wanna trust that You know what You're doin'
But right now, I'm just fallin' apart
It's hard to see it when I'm livin' in the moment
But Your love's still written on my heart
I get lost when I feel the wind blowin'
I gotta cling to who You are
'Cause You are good
Even when You're not understood
No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning outta control
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
I'm leaving doubt and sorrow in the distance
I'm gonna trust, and cast my fears aside
My life's a work that I know You'll finish
I know I'm gonna be alright
It's You I'll chase
Even when I can't see Your face
No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning out of control
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are
And oh, oh, oh, oh
My God is always faithful
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
(My God, my God)
And oh, oh, oh, oh
My God is always faithful
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
(My God, my God)
No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning outta control
Lord, you are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are
Oh, You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are
This song came on tonight as I was rocking Hudson to sleep. I was sitting there, thinking back on the last four years and my journey as a stay at home mom. I was worrying about tomorrow and the days to come. My stay at home mom status came to an end tonight when the board approved my position. And it is very bittersweet.
I have been preparing for this day for many months. When Tim and I started talking about seriously getting out of the Navy and moving back to my hometown, I knew I would go back to work. Tim has sacrificed so much in the last four years for me to be able to stay at home. He has supported me 110%. I knew it would be my time to sacrifice going back to work with him taking a cut in pay to come to Athens to work.
Whoever coined the phrase "the days are long but the years are short" couldn't have been closer to the truth. Days at home with kids aren't always easy. Some days seemed like they would never end. Some days bedtime couldn't get there soon enough. Some days, I may have cried more than I smiled. But then.....most days were better than anything you could ever imagine. Most days, I enjoyed every single thing about being at home. I loved being able to volunteer at Darbie's school. I loved being able to take her to school and pick her up. I loved being at home with Brylee and being able to shuttle her around to activities of her choice. I loved being home with Hudson every single day from the time he was born and watching him change daily into the little boy he is now. I loved being ministered to and ministering to other moms through MOPS. I loved my coffee dates with dear girlfriends. I loved being able to be home when the love of my life walked through the doors after a long day at work. I loved the Bible studies. I have LOVED this season of my life and I will forever cherish it.
Before I became a mom, teaching was my passion. Then I became a mom and being a mom took front seat. I pray that God directs me in this new season of my life and I learn to manage working and being a mom and wife. (and being good at it all)
While the tears have already started flowing, I am so excited about this next chapter in my life! I know the transition is going to be difficult as I will miss my kids oh so much. I pray that they transition well during this new season and we all make it out on the other end happy.
I never regretted walking away from my passion of teaching to be a stay at home mom. I have loved it! So when tomorrow I walk out the door while all of my babies are fast asleep, I will tuck these million memories inside my heart and be thankful. Thankful for the opportunity I have had and for what's to come.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Happy 5th Birthday Brylee Kayden
Dear Princess Brylee,
Mommy and Daddy can't believe you are FIVE today! Where has the past five years gone? It really does seem like yesterday we were in the hospital completely smitten over you!
YES, that was five years ago!
You are growing into such a sweet, caring, affectionate, funny, silly, smart, adventerous, thoughtful, beautiful girl. You have a heart the size of this country. You love others. You would do without so someone else could have something. You are very motherly. You are very sensitive. Your heart gets broken easily. You would never harm anyone. You love being with family and you love your brother and sister so very much! You are so beautiful, inside and out!
You have your five year old check up on Friday but you are currently standing at 46-47 inches tall (I think) and weighing about 40-45 lbs.
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This year in review:
You ran your first 5K and did a good job.....You actually ran a good mile of it =) You LOVED the color and sparkle =)
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You went on your first cruise and I do believe you are hooked, just like your mommy and daddy =)
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It snowed a lot in VA in January and you LOVED it! Here was your first time snow sledding and you were a pro at it!
We moved home to Alabama in April and although you love being around family, you miss your friends from VA terribly. You have had the hardest time adjusting. It has been hard on mommy too =( I know once we really get settled here you'll make new friends, but your friends in VA were your first friends you remember. You had such good girlfriends there. I loved watching you grow and make friends there. That's one of the hardest parts of being a military family, you say goodbye a lot to close and dear friends. I know you'll see them again and maybe you'll be life long friends with some of them!
You danced this year but since we moved, you didn't get to dance in your recital. I am so sorry baby girl. I know you worked so hard and was so disappointed that you didnt get to dance in your recital in VA. You can't wait to start dance again in AL. You played t-ball for the first time. We'll see if you stick with it. Some days you like it and others you don't. But I love watching you play, even if it is in the dirt half of the game =)
You had an early birthday party in VA before we left so you could celebrate with all of your friends. You had a Royal Tea Party and it was magical. You pretty much planned it all yourself!
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I still can't believe you are five today. You love Jesus and I pray that you always do. I pray that you always follow His plan for you life. God has big plans for you Brylee Kayden Hill and I can't wait to see what all He does through YOU! I love watching you grow every day. I love being your mommy! I am so honored and happy that He chose me for you! I hope FIVE is all of what you dream it to be! Happy Birthday Sweet Princess! We love you to the moon and back!
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
Mommy and Daddy can't believe you are FIVE today! Where has the past five years gone? It really does seem like yesterday we were in the hospital completely smitten over you!
You are growing into such a sweet, caring, affectionate, funny, silly, smart, adventerous, thoughtful, beautiful girl. You have a heart the size of this country. You love others. You would do without so someone else could have something. You are very motherly. You are very sensitive. Your heart gets broken easily. You would never harm anyone. You love being with family and you love your brother and sister so very much! You are so beautiful, inside and out!
You have your five year old check up on Friday but you are currently standing at 46-47 inches tall (I think) and weighing about 40-45 lbs.
You ran your first 5K and did a good job.....You actually ran a good mile of it =) You LOVED the color and sparkle =)
You went on your first cruise and I do believe you are hooked, just like your mommy and daddy =)
It snowed a lot in VA in January and you LOVED it! Here was your first time snow sledding and you were a pro at it!
We moved home to Alabama in April and although you love being around family, you miss your friends from VA terribly. You have had the hardest time adjusting. It has been hard on mommy too =( I know once we really get settled here you'll make new friends, but your friends in VA were your first friends you remember. You had such good girlfriends there. I loved watching you grow and make friends there. That's one of the hardest parts of being a military family, you say goodbye a lot to close and dear friends. I know you'll see them again and maybe you'll be life long friends with some of them!
You danced this year but since we moved, you didn't get to dance in your recital. I am so sorry baby girl. I know you worked so hard and was so disappointed that you didnt get to dance in your recital in VA. You can't wait to start dance again in AL. You played t-ball for the first time. We'll see if you stick with it. Some days you like it and others you don't. But I love watching you play, even if it is in the dirt half of the game =)
You had an early birthday party in VA before we left so you could celebrate with all of your friends. You had a Royal Tea Party and it was magical. You pretty much planned it all yourself!
Love,
Mommy and Daddy
Friday, April 4, 2014
Update on the Hill's
Hello everyone!
I wanted to give an update on our crazy life! We are now officially in Alabama! We are all getting adjusted...some of us better than others. We pulled in late Sunday night and it is now Friday. I feel like I am just now getting a chance to come up for breath. We are completely unpacked and I am sure my parents are thinking "what in the world did we get ourselves into?!" LOL We are living with my parents until we buy or build. Tim is here until April the 11th, and then he will fly back to VA until July. I am also flying back to VA with him on that day because last Friday, while our house hold goods were getting loaded into the moving van, I almost totalled my car. It is getting fixed and I am flying back in with Tim and driving back to AL a few days later. Did I say our lives have been crazy???
Tim has a second interview and a tour of the plant with a company here on Monday. Were praying all goes well and just maybe he'll be offered a job! That would be a nice birthday present for him =) I am thinking of finding a part time job in the evenings until school starts here. I'm not sure if or how that will work out, just some thoughts. I have LOVED this season in our life where I have been able to be home with our children. It has been the BIGGEST blessing of my life. I have loved every single minute of it. With that being said, we believe this season maybe over and I am going back to work full time in the Fall. I am going to miss my little man sooo much =(
Darbie started her new school on Tuesday and is actually loving it. She is adjusting very well! She is excited about the amount of "nice" girls and that many are openly "Christian" as she says =) She is, of course, loving being here with family and with Nana and Papa.
Brylee is having the hardest time of all adjusting to living here. She loves being around family but asks on a daily basis about her old house and her friends in VA. It makes my heart ache. She talks about them often and wonders what they are doing =( Hopefully, things will start to get easier. She has her first softball game in the morning. Last night her team had a scrimmage and she was quite a character. She hit the ball and ran to 3rd instead of 1st =) We laughed so hard we cried but she got right back other that next time around and did ok! It will definitely be a learning experience for her!
Hudson is doing just fine. He is sleeping in the room with us so that is an adjusment to all of us. He is in his own bed but he is such a light sleeper that even with the radio on he still hears us shifting in the bed =( He is LOVING having Nana and Papa and asks about a million times a day where they are. (they are working=)
Please be in prayer about us and our transition here in Alabama. Please pray that we are able to purchase the home that we LOVE and that we make whatever house we buy our home. Please pray for us while we are separated from Tim for 3 months. Please pray for the kids that they continue to get settled in ok, that Darbie continues to make friends, that Brylee's little heart hurts less and less each day for her friends she misses, and for Hudson to be sweet =)
We miss you guys and love you soo much! We can't wait until we see you again!
The Hill Family
I wanted to give an update on our crazy life! We are now officially in Alabama! We are all getting adjusted...some of us better than others. We pulled in late Sunday night and it is now Friday. I feel like I am just now getting a chance to come up for breath. We are completely unpacked and I am sure my parents are thinking "what in the world did we get ourselves into?!" LOL We are living with my parents until we buy or build. Tim is here until April the 11th, and then he will fly back to VA until July. I am also flying back to VA with him on that day because last Friday, while our house hold goods were getting loaded into the moving van, I almost totalled my car. It is getting fixed and I am flying back in with Tim and driving back to AL a few days later. Did I say our lives have been crazy???
Tim has a second interview and a tour of the plant with a company here on Monday. Were praying all goes well and just maybe he'll be offered a job! That would be a nice birthday present for him =) I am thinking of finding a part time job in the evenings until school starts here. I'm not sure if or how that will work out, just some thoughts. I have LOVED this season in our life where I have been able to be home with our children. It has been the BIGGEST blessing of my life. I have loved every single minute of it. With that being said, we believe this season maybe over and I am going back to work full time in the Fall. I am going to miss my little man sooo much =(
Darbie started her new school on Tuesday and is actually loving it. She is adjusting very well! She is excited about the amount of "nice" girls and that many are openly "Christian" as she says =) She is, of course, loving being here with family and with Nana and Papa.
Brylee is having the hardest time of all adjusting to living here. She loves being around family but asks on a daily basis about her old house and her friends in VA. It makes my heart ache. She talks about them often and wonders what they are doing =( Hopefully, things will start to get easier. She has her first softball game in the morning. Last night her team had a scrimmage and she was quite a character. She hit the ball and ran to 3rd instead of 1st =) We laughed so hard we cried but she got right back other that next time around and did ok! It will definitely be a learning experience for her!
Hudson is doing just fine. He is sleeping in the room with us so that is an adjusment to all of us. He is in his own bed but he is such a light sleeper that even with the radio on he still hears us shifting in the bed =( He is LOVING having Nana and Papa and asks about a million times a day where they are. (they are working=)
Please be in prayer about us and our transition here in Alabama. Please pray that we are able to purchase the home that we LOVE and that we make whatever house we buy our home. Please pray for us while we are separated from Tim for 3 months. Please pray for the kids that they continue to get settled in ok, that Darbie continues to make friends, that Brylee's little heart hurts less and less each day for her friends she misses, and for Hudson to be sweet =)
We miss you guys and love you soo much! We can't wait until we see you again!
The Hill Family
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Hudson is 2!!!
Dear Hudson,
I don't think I can make it through this blog without crying, seeing that I started crying yesterday with just the thought of you turning 2 today. It seriously feels like you were just born yesterday evening. It was one of the best births ever! (Brylee's was amazing too, but I was sick and they gave me some medicine and I fell asleep right after nursing her for the first time and felt groggy even when I woke up a few hours later) With you, I had 2.5 ml of something, and it never made me bat an eye. I had the best feeling after giving birth! You were the most beautiful baby boy I had/have ever laid my eyes on. You have taught your daddy and me so much about so much! You are loving to the ends of the earth and back. You are as stubborn as a mule. You can get aggressive (which we work on on a daily basis) You already have empathy for others. You have taught us paitience when we thought there was none left. You've showed us what true exhaustion really is, and we still got up every morning ready to start a new day. The rocking chair that we bought from Walmart on a whim because I thought I wanted one has become one of our most favorite things in our house. Daddy and I use it to rock you every single day at nap time and every single night...and it has had many uses in the middle of the night too. =) Brylee loves to play in it and Darbie loves to sit and read in it. We may never get rid of that thing!
Well, let's talk about you being 2! You weigh 32 lbs and are 37 inches tall. (I'm not sure what percentile you are in.) You haven't had any immunizations since either 9 months are 12 months. Not for any serious reason, although we steer clear from a few...It's just whenever we go to the doctor, it never seems like a good time to jab you in the leg =/ Your doctor, Dr. Posang, always encourages me to get them but smiles when I tell her "maybe" She has been a fabulous doctor these last two years and I truly believe she loves all three of you guys! Food allergies... You were tested via a blood test about 6 months ago and they came back negative. We actually do think you are good on soy now. Twice, you've had meat marinated with a mixture and soy being in it and you've been fine. Eggs still upset your tummy terribly. You LOVE eggs and during Thanksgiving this year, you'd beg us for deviled eggs. =( You settled for the egg yolks, which you arent allergic to anyways. We had high hopes of putting you on cows milk at 2 but that can't happen. We've tried to slowly introduce dairy into your diet for the last 6 months, and although it doesnt seem to upset your tummy anymore, you break out from head to toe in exzema. Only problem is....you LOVE yogurt and cheese. I have to hide both of these from you in the fridge.
When you say yogurt you sound like a German guy! It IS the funniest ever! the word "water" is the same way. Your vocabulary is steadily increasing on a daily basis. You are an actor. You love to "act" things out. If we can't understand what you are saying, you'll either act it out for us, or take us by the hand and lead us to it. You currently call your headsets in the car radios...You aren't big on animal sounds, which is driving your daddy nuts. For some reason, he thinks you should know and be able to say the animals sounds and you just wont do it other than a puppy...which is a high pitched barking sound you make.... its pretty cute! Today, as I was singing "happy birthday" to you... you jumped right in and started singing it right back... we sang it all day long and you loved it!
You are into Cars, Monsters Inc., and trains right now! You are 100% boy! You are starting to love books but still wont sit and listen to more than a page or two. You like tv but are usually too busy to sit and watch anything. You are very adventurous. You have no fear which gives us great fear. If it can be climbed, you will climb it. If it can be crawled under, you will wiggle your way under it. You love to jump on things. You get bruises on your face/head on a daily basis.
You had your brithday party at The Bounce House and it was Cars themed. You had a blast!!! IT was perfect for you! Your friends had a lot of fun too! We normally go out to dinner on your actual birthday but daddy is out to sea right now, so we had a nice "Hudson" dinner at home tonight.....mac and cheese, hot dogs, and veggies....all completed with cup cakes that you picked out =) Tonight you skyped with Nana and Papa for over an hour and you showed them every single toy you own!
You love your sisters! You love to play with them and you cant understand why you can't always go with them...whether it be with Darbie to school.....with Brylee to ballet...or if I send them both to the bathroom in a store... you just dont understand poor buddy. I can't say you are a mommy's boy or a daddy's boy... I think you are equally both. You LOVE your gaga (this is what you have been calling your daddy for months and months now. You are very capable of saying the "d" sounds and say it in other words...but not dada or daddy" He has grown to love being called gaga...when he's out to sea, you miss him terribly. You are his side kick. Because I am home with you all day, you love your mommy too. You are the best helper when it comes to cleaning the house. You love to wash windows and cabinets and you love unloading the dishwasher and putting detergent in it when its loaded ready to go. You love to play with the settings on the washer and dryer. You will help me pick up shoes and dirty clothes....when it comes to toys... its whatever mood you are in. You can be very tempermental!
This has been FUN year with you! I love watching you grow, although I so wish I could stop the time, or slow it down some. I try to cherish the good and the bad...the pretty and the ugly.....the tired and not so tired days.... because if time keeps zooming like it has in the last two years, you will be grown before I know.
So little man of mine, I pray that you continue to grow and that you love and serve God with all of your heart. I pray nightly that you will become a Godly man, husband, and father.
You stole my heart 2 years ago at first sight....just like your daddy did many years ago.
We love you and can't wait to see what this year holds for you!
Love,
Daddy and Mommy
Pictures from this year!
I don't think I can make it through this blog without crying, seeing that I started crying yesterday with just the thought of you turning 2 today. It seriously feels like you were just born yesterday evening. It was one of the best births ever! (Brylee's was amazing too, but I was sick and they gave me some medicine and I fell asleep right after nursing her for the first time and felt groggy even when I woke up a few hours later) With you, I had 2.5 ml of something, and it never made me bat an eye. I had the best feeling after giving birth! You were the most beautiful baby boy I had/have ever laid my eyes on. You have taught your daddy and me so much about so much! You are loving to the ends of the earth and back. You are as stubborn as a mule. You can get aggressive (which we work on on a daily basis) You already have empathy for others. You have taught us paitience when we thought there was none left. You've showed us what true exhaustion really is, and we still got up every morning ready to start a new day. The rocking chair that we bought from Walmart on a whim because I thought I wanted one has become one of our most favorite things in our house. Daddy and I use it to rock you every single day at nap time and every single night...and it has had many uses in the middle of the night too. =) Brylee loves to play in it and Darbie loves to sit and read in it. We may never get rid of that thing!
Well, let's talk about you being 2! You weigh 32 lbs and are 37 inches tall. (I'm not sure what percentile you are in.) You haven't had any immunizations since either 9 months are 12 months. Not for any serious reason, although we steer clear from a few...It's just whenever we go to the doctor, it never seems like a good time to jab you in the leg =/ Your doctor, Dr. Posang, always encourages me to get them but smiles when I tell her "maybe" She has been a fabulous doctor these last two years and I truly believe she loves all three of you guys! Food allergies... You were tested via a blood test about 6 months ago and they came back negative. We actually do think you are good on soy now. Twice, you've had meat marinated with a mixture and soy being in it and you've been fine. Eggs still upset your tummy terribly. You LOVE eggs and during Thanksgiving this year, you'd beg us for deviled eggs. =( You settled for the egg yolks, which you arent allergic to anyways. We had high hopes of putting you on cows milk at 2 but that can't happen. We've tried to slowly introduce dairy into your diet for the last 6 months, and although it doesnt seem to upset your tummy anymore, you break out from head to toe in exzema. Only problem is....you LOVE yogurt and cheese. I have to hide both of these from you in the fridge.
When you say yogurt you sound like a German guy! It IS the funniest ever! the word "water" is the same way. Your vocabulary is steadily increasing on a daily basis. You are an actor. You love to "act" things out. If we can't understand what you are saying, you'll either act it out for us, or take us by the hand and lead us to it. You currently call your headsets in the car radios...You aren't big on animal sounds, which is driving your daddy nuts. For some reason, he thinks you should know and be able to say the animals sounds and you just wont do it other than a puppy...which is a high pitched barking sound you make.... its pretty cute! Today, as I was singing "happy birthday" to you... you jumped right in and started singing it right back... we sang it all day long and you loved it!
You are into Cars, Monsters Inc., and trains right now! You are 100% boy! You are starting to love books but still wont sit and listen to more than a page or two. You like tv but are usually too busy to sit and watch anything. You are very adventurous. You have no fear which gives us great fear. If it can be climbed, you will climb it. If it can be crawled under, you will wiggle your way under it. You love to jump on things. You get bruises on your face/head on a daily basis.
You had your brithday party at The Bounce House and it was Cars themed. You had a blast!!! IT was perfect for you! Your friends had a lot of fun too! We normally go out to dinner on your actual birthday but daddy is out to sea right now, so we had a nice "Hudson" dinner at home tonight.....mac and cheese, hot dogs, and veggies....all completed with cup cakes that you picked out =) Tonight you skyped with Nana and Papa for over an hour and you showed them every single toy you own!
You love your sisters! You love to play with them and you cant understand why you can't always go with them...whether it be with Darbie to school.....with Brylee to ballet...or if I send them both to the bathroom in a store... you just dont understand poor buddy. I can't say you are a mommy's boy or a daddy's boy... I think you are equally both. You LOVE your gaga (this is what you have been calling your daddy for months and months now. You are very capable of saying the "d" sounds and say it in other words...but not dada or daddy" He has grown to love being called gaga...when he's out to sea, you miss him terribly. You are his side kick. Because I am home with you all day, you love your mommy too. You are the best helper when it comes to cleaning the house. You love to wash windows and cabinets and you love unloading the dishwasher and putting detergent in it when its loaded ready to go. You love to play with the settings on the washer and dryer. You will help me pick up shoes and dirty clothes....when it comes to toys... its whatever mood you are in. You can be very tempermental!
This has been FUN year with you! I love watching you grow, although I so wish I could stop the time, or slow it down some. I try to cherish the good and the bad...the pretty and the ugly.....the tired and not so tired days.... because if time keeps zooming like it has in the last two years, you will be grown before I know.
So little man of mine, I pray that you continue to grow and that you love and serve God with all of your heart. I pray nightly that you will become a Godly man, husband, and father.
You stole my heart 2 years ago at first sight....just like your daddy did many years ago.
We love you and can't wait to see what this year holds for you!
Love,
Daddy and Mommy
Pictures from this year!
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Enough
When I started this blog a few years ago, I had every intention of "blogging" on a regularly basis. Well, yeah, that didn't happen. You see, I have a lot I want to say, but I am not a very good writer. Hmp, anyways.......I've been struggling with not being enough here lately. It seems like there is never enough time in the day.....I've gained some weight after weaning Hudson....had I have known that, I'd have nursed him for forever! Ive had to finally give up on the idea of ever fitting back into my size 4 jeans and pass them on to my ever so growing daughter....I am never enough.......(you insert it here and I have probably felt it) But today, as I was sitting in Bible study (with some AMAZING PWOC ladies) listening to Priscilla Shirer......I heard God whisper ever so gently..."YOU are enough.... I have made you enough.....put your whole heart into me and depend on me and you will be enough"
Psalm 84:11-12
"For the Lord God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right. O Lord of Heaven's Armies, what joy for those who trust in you."
Philippians 4:19
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."
On days where I am just not feeling enough.... I'm going to cling to these words and know, that in Him, I am.
Psalm 84:11-12
"For the Lord God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right. O Lord of Heaven's Armies, what joy for those who trust in you."
Philippians 4:19
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."
On days where I am just not feeling enough.... I'm going to cling to these words and know, that in Him, I am.
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Happy 4th Birthday to my sweet Princess!
Dear Princess Brylee,
I can't believe you are already 4 years and 21 days old. Yep, I am a little behind. Our life has been C-R-A-Z-Y since mommy went back to work "part time". You have adjusted well and you love playing with one of your best friends, Riley while mommy is at work. I haven't even gotten through the first few sentences and tears are already stinging my eyes. Maybe this is one reason I've been putting off writing this...... I remember the day you were born just like it was yesterday. I remember the car ride to the hospital with daddy driving and Nana in the back seat. I remember so badly wanting to stop by Hardee's to get breakfast but they had told me no food. I remember every tiny detail about my labor and delivery with you. Just a few weeks ago something was said and I told you I had you being born on video. You asked me if you could watch it and I was hesitant but decided to let you. (I did turn down the sound of mommy yelling though) You watched with amazement in your eyes. You were grinning from ear to ear and you thought it was the neatest thing ever! You talked about it for days and you then asked to see Darbie's birth and Hudson's birth. Silly girl!
You are now 40 pounds and 43.5 inches tall! You are currently sick with what we think is strep throat.=( You are starting to feel a little better today! Finally!
This year, you decided to eat at Chick-Fil-A for your brithday dinner! It was right up your alley. We ate outside and you and Hudson played! You opened presnets from mommy, daddy, Darbie, and Hudson. That night, you and mommy had to drive to Norfolk so you could have a sleep study done at CHKD. I don't know what kidn of information they got from you because you barely slept. You had to have the sleep study done becuase your tonsils are about the size of bouncy balls in your throat and have always been HUGE! The ENT doctor is trying to decide whether they need to be removed or not and the thought of you having surgery scares me to death! You had your birthday party at Chuck E Cheese again this year. You love that place and had a blast with all of your friends!
Currently, you still love the Disney Princesses, Minnie Mouse, Doc McStuffins, My Little Poney, Dora.....and just about anything else on Disney Jr. You continue to have a LOVE for talking =) You have turned into a little mommy, especially with Hudson. You look after him so well. You take care of him, you share with him, and you help him. It is a sweet sight to see! You love your big sister so much! You look up to her like no other! I hope you all three always have a special closeness that nothing can tear apart! You are very opinionated, especially when it comes to clothes. I almost don't buy you anything without your approval first. =( You are missing our family back in Alabama more and more as you get older. You guys just spend spring break and Easter in Alabama and that's all you have talked about since. You want to see Ellie bug. You want Nana and Papa to come visit your home in VA. You want to spend the night with Uncle Zach and Aunt Laura..... It breaks my heart and tells me that we are all ready to go home next summer for good! You still love roller coasters and will ride anythign Busch Gardens will let you on! Your friends here in VA that you love to play with are Riley, Hailee, Addyson, Alicia, Jordyn, Austin, Riley, Ava, Abigail, Lincoln, Logan, Peyton, and I am sure a few more I am missing. You can keep our social calendar booked! Here recently, you orchestrated a water party that mommy knew nthing about. You even invited Alicia over for it! You have been on my case to have this party of yours so as soon as school is out for the summer, we are having it!
This year, you went to AWANA on Wednesday nights. You went from crying when I dropped you off to crying when I came to pick you up. you think it's your school, since you dont go to preschool like some of your friends. You picked up ballet again in January and just finished your second recital! You did an amazing job! Mommy and daddy LOVE watching you dance! You also tried out gymnastics and you liked it ok! You are also playing in your first season of soccer. You are hanging in there! We will see if you continue to play =)
You are such a smart, sweet, caring, kind, giving, active, sassy girl who loves Jesus! You love church and you loving doing your nightly devotionals. You often ask us to pray for you for some reason and it melts our hearts.
Mommy and Daddy love you sooooo much and although we would love for you to stay little, we know that that can't happen and we are excited to see what God does with you! He has big plans for you, Brylee Kayden Hill! You are so funny and I can't remember what life was like without you!
You, just hours old!
this was walking into the mall to get your first haircut! Yes, your first haircut right before you turned 4!!! I miss these long curls (although it doesnt look very curly in this picture)
Yes, we told her to even it out not realizing how much hair that would be....about 6 inches later, you were in love with your new haircut and mommy and daddy wanted to cry =)
Opening presents at Chick-Fil-A
At Chuck E Cheese for you birthday party!
Your 2013 recital. It was during Hudson's nap time so he stayed at home with a friend!
You and Jordyn =)
Riley came to watch you dance =)
You little silly girls who love to talk during soccer games =) It has been so much fun watching you two play soccer!
I can't believe you are already 4 years and 21 days old. Yep, I am a little behind. Our life has been C-R-A-Z-Y since mommy went back to work "part time". You have adjusted well and you love playing with one of your best friends, Riley while mommy is at work. I haven't even gotten through the first few sentences and tears are already stinging my eyes. Maybe this is one reason I've been putting off writing this...... I remember the day you were born just like it was yesterday. I remember the car ride to the hospital with daddy driving and Nana in the back seat. I remember so badly wanting to stop by Hardee's to get breakfast but they had told me no food. I remember every tiny detail about my labor and delivery with you. Just a few weeks ago something was said and I told you I had you being born on video. You asked me if you could watch it and I was hesitant but decided to let you. (I did turn down the sound of mommy yelling though) You watched with amazement in your eyes. You were grinning from ear to ear and you thought it was the neatest thing ever! You talked about it for days and you then asked to see Darbie's birth and Hudson's birth. Silly girl!
You are now 40 pounds and 43.5 inches tall! You are currently sick with what we think is strep throat.=( You are starting to feel a little better today! Finally!
This year, you decided to eat at Chick-Fil-A for your brithday dinner! It was right up your alley. We ate outside and you and Hudson played! You opened presnets from mommy, daddy, Darbie, and Hudson. That night, you and mommy had to drive to Norfolk so you could have a sleep study done at CHKD. I don't know what kidn of information they got from you because you barely slept. You had to have the sleep study done becuase your tonsils are about the size of bouncy balls in your throat and have always been HUGE! The ENT doctor is trying to decide whether they need to be removed or not and the thought of you having surgery scares me to death! You had your birthday party at Chuck E Cheese again this year. You love that place and had a blast with all of your friends!
Currently, you still love the Disney Princesses, Minnie Mouse, Doc McStuffins, My Little Poney, Dora.....and just about anything else on Disney Jr. You continue to have a LOVE for talking =) You have turned into a little mommy, especially with Hudson. You look after him so well. You take care of him, you share with him, and you help him. It is a sweet sight to see! You love your big sister so much! You look up to her like no other! I hope you all three always have a special closeness that nothing can tear apart! You are very opinionated, especially when it comes to clothes. I almost don't buy you anything without your approval first. =( You are missing our family back in Alabama more and more as you get older. You guys just spend spring break and Easter in Alabama and that's all you have talked about since. You want to see Ellie bug. You want Nana and Papa to come visit your home in VA. You want to spend the night with Uncle Zach and Aunt Laura..... It breaks my heart and tells me that we are all ready to go home next summer for good! You still love roller coasters and will ride anythign Busch Gardens will let you on! Your friends here in VA that you love to play with are Riley, Hailee, Addyson, Alicia, Jordyn, Austin, Riley, Ava, Abigail, Lincoln, Logan, Peyton, and I am sure a few more I am missing. You can keep our social calendar booked! Here recently, you orchestrated a water party that mommy knew nthing about. You even invited Alicia over for it! You have been on my case to have this party of yours so as soon as school is out for the summer, we are having it!
This year, you went to AWANA on Wednesday nights. You went from crying when I dropped you off to crying when I came to pick you up. you think it's your school, since you dont go to preschool like some of your friends. You picked up ballet again in January and just finished your second recital! You did an amazing job! Mommy and daddy LOVE watching you dance! You also tried out gymnastics and you liked it ok! You are also playing in your first season of soccer. You are hanging in there! We will see if you continue to play =)
You are such a smart, sweet, caring, kind, giving, active, sassy girl who loves Jesus! You love church and you loving doing your nightly devotionals. You often ask us to pray for you for some reason and it melts our hearts.
Mommy and Daddy love you sooooo much and although we would love for you to stay little, we know that that can't happen and we are excited to see what God does with you! He has big plans for you, Brylee Kayden Hill! You are so funny and I can't remember what life was like without you!
You, just hours old!
this was walking into the mall to get your first haircut! Yes, your first haircut right before you turned 4!!! I miss these long curls (although it doesnt look very curly in this picture)
Yes, we told her to even it out not realizing how much hair that would be....about 6 inches later, you were in love with your new haircut and mommy and daddy wanted to cry =)
Opening presents at Chick-Fil-A
At Chuck E Cheese for you birthday party!
Your 2013 recital. It was during Hudson's nap time so he stayed at home with a friend!
You and Jordyn =)
Riley came to watch you dance =)
You little silly girls who love to talk during soccer games =) It has been so much fun watching you two play soccer!
Friday, March 15, 2013
hippie-fied =)
I giggle on the insides when I think of becoming hippie-fied! It all started a few years back. Brylee had just turned one and all of sudden we couldn't keep her bottom clear of terrible diaper rashes. I was tired of putting medication on her bum every diaper change...we switched from pampers (which I loved) to huggies hoping that would make a difference...nope....so I started secretly researching cloth diapers. I had tons of friends who did this but I always thought they were a little crazy for doing it! I mean, you have to wash out poop and who needs another load of laundry to do??? When I thought of cloth diapers the image of prefolds kept together with pins and the white covers (that you can still get from walmart) over them came to my mind....but I was desperate for my sweet girl to have a clear bottom. I didnt mention it to Tim because I knew he would laugh out loud and tell me flat out NO.....but....one day he came home and caught me red handed looking up cloth diapers....he said "are you thinking of cloth diapering Brylee?" I hesitantly said, "possibly... I mean... I don't know..." yes, I was stuttering and choosing my words carefuly! He then said, "if you want to try it I will support you and do it with you." and that is what started our journey of becoming hippies! We researched, found what we thought was economical (since at the time we weren't having any more kids) and made our first order! Obviously, we fell in love!
The next step to becoming a hippie family came not long after that when I decided I wanted us to start eating a little more healthy. We already ate what we though to be healthy but I wanted to make a few changes....this came a little harder to pull over Tim but with the encouragement of our doctor in Charleston, we made some minor changes to what we bought at the grocery store...then the next summer we even started our own garden..some organic seeds, some not...but a chemical free garden! We loved the whole process!
Not long after cloth diapering I started looking into making our own cleaners and laundry detergent. I went at it from the stand point of saving money...We had just went from a 2 person income down to a one so I could stay home with Brylee and I knew Tim would come more likey to trying these things if it was from a financial stand point! HA! I was right......we started making our own detergent and some household cleaners! Let me say I love our detergent and all purpose cleaner and window cleaner... however I never did find a recipe for bathroom cleaner that I liked...oh well, method works great =) I should say this though...when it comes to making laundry detergent, I may have made it the first two times, with the help of my lovely husband, but it quickly became something he loved to do and he took over it! He makes all of our laundry detergent now and has for a few years.... he is a huge advocate of it and spread the news all of the time... he even helped a friend of ours that was about to have twins learn to make it... they had themselves a little laundry making party at our house one night! (I thought it was pretty cute!)
The last adventure we have taken started a few weeks back....and we are back to foods....we have meal planned with e-meals for 3 years now and have loved it....it took out the fight of whats for dinner...it cut down on our grocery bill...and it has given me some amazing recipes....just a few weeks ago I was thinking of changing things up a bit and wanted to eat a little healthier and was thinking of changing our meal plan to a different one offered by e-meals when a friend posted a blog about the frest 20... I looked into it but was kind of skeptical... I didnt know if my family would eat the kind of meals they plan.... but at this time, Tim was making huge changes in his diet...he had cut out almost all artificial sweetners...he was trying to make healthier decisions with food and I knew I needed to join him... So, I asked him what he thought of changing our meal plan to The Fresh 20.... I told him a little about it and showed him a sample meal plan. he quickly said it sounds great! I was going to wait until our e-meals subscription ran out but he encouraged me to go ahead and make the switch. We could always switch back to emeals after the 3 month subscription of The Fresh 20 if we didnt like it.....So I ordered it and we are on our second week! Let me say we havent had a meal yet that we dont like! They have been amazing and i know they are good for us and for our three miracles! The meals are centered around 20 fresh ingredients each week. My fridge is all of the sudden full of greens, and yellows...and reds..... and my pantry is kind of empty. I am cooking with a lot of herbs and fresh veggies and we are LOVING IT!!! Tim and I are loving cooking together...some of the meals take a little time to prepare but we both love to cook and it is sooo worth the time! (There is a way to cut down on the time in the kitchen though and the meal plan tells you how each week.) I found out this past week that Tim loves cooking with me.... I never knew that... We've been married for over 6 years and I didnt know! I knew he loved to cook but never thought it mattered whether he cooked with me or not. When we started this plan two weeks ago, he told Darbie, "mom is getting hippie again and we are changing the way eat and what we eat!"
I used to think the term "hippie" was bad...ugly...old fashioned...i dont know but I can tell you that if breastfeeding, baby wearing, cloth diapering, detergent and household cleaner making,buying as much organic food that we can afford, and cooking with I'd say 75-80% fresh ingredients is "hippie....then that I am....and Tim Hill, you are a hippie lover!
The next step to becoming a hippie family came not long after that when I decided I wanted us to start eating a little more healthy. We already ate what we though to be healthy but I wanted to make a few changes....this came a little harder to pull over Tim but with the encouragement of our doctor in Charleston, we made some minor changes to what we bought at the grocery store...then the next summer we even started our own garden..some organic seeds, some not...but a chemical free garden! We loved the whole process!
Not long after cloth diapering I started looking into making our own cleaners and laundry detergent. I went at it from the stand point of saving money...We had just went from a 2 person income down to a one so I could stay home with Brylee and I knew Tim would come more likey to trying these things if it was from a financial stand point! HA! I was right......we started making our own detergent and some household cleaners! Let me say I love our detergent and all purpose cleaner and window cleaner... however I never did find a recipe for bathroom cleaner that I liked...oh well, method works great =) I should say this though...when it comes to making laundry detergent, I may have made it the first two times, with the help of my lovely husband, but it quickly became something he loved to do and he took over it! He makes all of our laundry detergent now and has for a few years.... he is a huge advocate of it and spread the news all of the time... he even helped a friend of ours that was about to have twins learn to make it... they had themselves a little laundry making party at our house one night! (I thought it was pretty cute!)
The last adventure we have taken started a few weeks back....and we are back to foods....we have meal planned with e-meals for 3 years now and have loved it....it took out the fight of whats for dinner...it cut down on our grocery bill...and it has given me some amazing recipes....just a few weeks ago I was thinking of changing things up a bit and wanted to eat a little healthier and was thinking of changing our meal plan to a different one offered by e-meals when a friend posted a blog about the frest 20... I looked into it but was kind of skeptical... I didnt know if my family would eat the kind of meals they plan.... but at this time, Tim was making huge changes in his diet...he had cut out almost all artificial sweetners...he was trying to make healthier decisions with food and I knew I needed to join him... So, I asked him what he thought of changing our meal plan to The Fresh 20.... I told him a little about it and showed him a sample meal plan. he quickly said it sounds great! I was going to wait until our e-meals subscription ran out but he encouraged me to go ahead and make the switch. We could always switch back to emeals after the 3 month subscription of The Fresh 20 if we didnt like it.....So I ordered it and we are on our second week! Let me say we havent had a meal yet that we dont like! They have been amazing and i know they are good for us and for our three miracles! The meals are centered around 20 fresh ingredients each week. My fridge is all of the sudden full of greens, and yellows...and reds..... and my pantry is kind of empty. I am cooking with a lot of herbs and fresh veggies and we are LOVING IT!!! Tim and I are loving cooking together...some of the meals take a little time to prepare but we both love to cook and it is sooo worth the time! (There is a way to cut down on the time in the kitchen though and the meal plan tells you how each week.) I found out this past week that Tim loves cooking with me.... I never knew that... We've been married for over 6 years and I didnt know! I knew he loved to cook but never thought it mattered whether he cooked with me or not. When we started this plan two weeks ago, he told Darbie, "mom is getting hippie again and we are changing the way eat and what we eat!"
I used to think the term "hippie" was bad...ugly...old fashioned...i dont know but I can tell you that if breastfeeding, baby wearing, cloth diapering, detergent and household cleaner making,buying as much organic food that we can afford, and cooking with I'd say 75-80% fresh ingredients is "hippie....then that I am....and Tim Hill, you are a hippie lover!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Happy 12th birthday my sweet girl!
A week and a half ago, you turned the big 1-2! It is your last year before you hit the teen years....ooohhhh goooooddddnneessssss! =) As I sit here tonight with you tucked tightly into your bed, I have a million things I want to say but I can't seem to form complete thoughts (Maybe because I'm exhausted, but I can't put this off any longer so here goes!) Part of me wants to cry that another year has gone by. So much has changed in these last 12 months! You have had a fabulous year! You have played two more seasons of soccer and gotten sooo much better. You have picked back up piano, which I am not sure if you will continue or not, but you set a goal and we try our hardest to make you guys reach those. You said a little while back you didnt enjoy it much anymore, but we are not sure if it's because it got hard for you or what....so for now, you are still tugging along with it. It makes me a little sad to think you might not play forever because you are so good at it and I enjoy listening to you practice while I am cleaning....because that's what I do most of the time....clean =) We applied to the Middle Years Program at a different middle school than what we are zoned for last year before school let out and you got accepted. We left the final decision up to you. I mean, we had just moved, you made new friends right away at your new elementary school, and if you went to the new middle school, it would be totally new kids, since you werent zoned for it. We gave you all the positives it had and the one negative of not knowing anyone and once again, 6 months later starting all over with friends. You decided to go and you LOVE it! It's a good haul for us, but your brother and sister are champs in the car there and back twice a day! You made friends right away. Your faith has been tested not only by another student this year, but also by a teacher. (which should have never happened but God used it for His glory) You stood your ground respectfully and we have probaly never been more proud of you! You have grown spiritually so much in this last year! I feel like we have had soo many conversations of whats appropriate and what's not at your age. So many people your age aren't given restrictions and they are allowed to watch and listen to things that they shouldn't. They are allowed to wear things that you'll never own. Girls are allowed to text boys and who knows what else. Our deal with boys right now is yes, you can like a boy...We believe that is natural...but at this time, that is the extent of anything boy related. We feel like as you get older, that part of your life will be more appropriate but as of now, we want you focusing on other things and not becoming completely obssessed with boys. Too much of a good thing is bad and right now you are just learning who Darbie is. We want you pursuing God, and not a boy. My daily prayer is that you will know that this is for the best. That there will come a time when you can watch certain things because you will understand more and you will be more mature. As of now, you dont question us and you accept when we tell you "no". I know this will probably change as you enter your teenage years but for now, I just smile and enjoy this moment. Your taste in clothes haven't changed much in the last year. You still L-O-V-E Justice, which is probably an understatement! You are not afraid to wear something just because of where it comes from and I love that! You are more into following clothing trends of what other kids are wearing...not necessarily trends, but you are more into brands that others are wearing. And that's ok! Some things we buy for you and others we make you buy yourself.....like the 50.00 underaumor hoodie you want right now... yeah, you are buying that one little girl! =) You are still your same sweet self. You look out for others and you are still kind. I pray this a a trait you'll never loose. We teach you to treat others the way you want to be treated and you do! At the moment, you still love playing with Brylee. Partly, I feel she has kept you "young". You still play barbies, babies, and whatever else she wants to play. I know these days are sooooo close to being over but I still enjoy you two playing together. she looks up to you like you don't even know! She truly misses you every single day you are at school. Hudson loves you too! I'm not sure if he misses you yet though =) Daddy and I are learning how to raise you. You are our first and we have made a lot of mistakes and I am sure we'll make plenty more. We sooo don't want you growing up, but at the same time we are sooo enjoying watching the spritiual, loving, laughing, sweet young lady you are becoming! We know God has HUGE plans for your life! We pray that you always follow His lead in everything you do!You decided you would rather like to spend the weekend at Great Wolf Lodge instead of having a birthday party this year. It partly made me sad becasue I love planning your birthday theme with you, but it was what you wanted and I enjoyed our weekend get away! We had never been and decided to not take anyone else with us this time. However, when we got there we found out that they had upgraded our room to a suite, which was amazing and roomy! While you, daddy, and Brylee were at the waterpark playing, I had to take Hudson to the room to get a nap in and during that time I called your bestfriend from school's mom to see if she could join us for the weekend. You had no clue she was coming! You enjoyed having her there with you and I have no clue how late you guys stayed up...However, I know you were passed out at 1:30 because from that point until almost 5 am, you brother thought it was party time and we were up. Because Great Wolfe Lodge is pricey, we didnt take you to your choice of restraunt for your brithday dinner. You wanted Captain Georges, which is an all you can eat seafood restraunt that is amazing delicisou and amazingly expensive! Yes, you have expensive taste in clothes, jewelry, shoes, and food! =) And purses...even though you dont even carry one you are already asking me for my coach purse when I am done with it! We had a pizza party in our room that night with specialized desserts for everyone! You had a slize of red velvet cake, which is one of your favorites, Brylee had a cooke, daddy and I shared a slice of cheese cake, and Caroline had a cup cake! I am sad that I didnt get many pictures but we were having so much fun at the waterpark I didnt want to sit on the side with a camera...afraid of getting it wet =( Here are a few that I do have!
The funny thing about this picture is we stumbled upon you guys in the hallway while we were trying to get in the room and you walked withint 5 feet of Caroline and never even noticed her!
Yes, your sister got you a My Little Pony card and you loved it! You just better be glad I talked her out of the my little pony toy she wanted to get you for your birthday =)
You blowing out your candle!
All in all it was a fun, special weekend! Everyone emjoyed themselves and we had a great time!
We love you so much and we are soo proud and honored that God saw us fit to be your mom and dad!
Love always
Mom and Dad
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Being obedient
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUM86eL6tVw
He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, “Dear God won't you please
Could you send someone here who will love me?”
Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
'Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means
Her office is shrinking a little each day
She's the woman whose husband has run away
She'll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would've stayed
And she says…
Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means
He's waiting to die as he sits all alone
He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”
Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
“I know you've murdered and I know you've lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I...”
I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew
Thia is the song that started the yearn in my heart. About a month ago, we were about to leave to take Darbie to school, and she asked me if we could take the Ipod and listen to Christmas music. Normally, I'd said yes! I LOVE Christmas music and we listen to it often in the car. However, this morning, for what I thought to be an unknown reason, I said no. I didnt know why I said no. I had a conversation back and forth with myself about why I would tel lher no, but I did and I stuck with that decision. About half wya to her school this song came on the radio. Now, I have heard this song a million times and it never spoke to me the way it spoke to me that morning. Tears immediately started streaming down my face. I heard God ever so clearly that morning. He was riding in the passenger seat and He and I were having a conversation. I told him that we were not ready for another child. The timing is wrong. We don't have the money. Hudson is still nursing. Hudson is still not sleeping the greatest. Actually the night before that morning, we were up most of the night because Hudson wasn't sleeping. I was laughing asking God,.... dont You see this????? While our hands are blessed, they are also full at the moment.... Full with an 11 year old who is growing and becoming a young lady.....full with an active 3 year old who is full of energy....and full with a now 1 year old who was at the time still nursing and who is still not sleeping the greatest.....God, WE are not ready yet.... someday.....someday we will be ready.....and He was consistently telling me "yes you are. I will not ask something of you that you can not handle".... that is what I kept getting from Him that morning... Lean on me... I'll give you what you need....Depend on me....Rely on me.... Let me bless you like no one else can.....
I wiped my eyes and told Darbie to have a wonderful day and back home we went.... the thought kept nagging at me but I started believing that it was me just dreaming.... I did just not get a good nights rest... we were up most of the night... I was just sleepy....groggy....
I didn't say anything to anyone for about a week. But God kept laying it on my heart....NOW NOW NOW is what I felt like he was telling me... I laughed one day and said Tim will shoot me if I bring this up to him....so I didn't... I let a few more days pass by and Tim had duty one night so I decided to email him everything... I'm better at writing than speaking my feelings sometimes and I didnt have to see the crazy look on his face as he was reading it! So I sent him an email explaining just as I have here and I didnt get any response back from him... He came home the next day and said nothing about the email... .I said...."you see God... he thinks I am C-R-A-Z-Y!!!" The night before Thanksgiving, I was sitting at the counter and he was in the kitchen and he looks over to me and nonchalantly says "have you ever thought that maybe we would adopt a child with special needs?" I started with all of the statistics of special needs... all of the problems that could happen.... al lof the negatives when God stopped me dead in my tracks... "'Terra....this is not your plan...its Mine...." Wow what a thought to slap you in the face... On Thanksgiving Day, I went to check the mail and there were two big enevelopes in there... As I was walking back to the ouse I looked at the return address label to see that they were from Bethany Christian Services... I said "Ok God, I get it! I didnt order these... and I know Tim didn't....so we'll get on it... but lead us please!" I got back to the house and told Tim that somehow we received some stuff from Bethany Christian Services....only to find that he had been doing a lot of research and had inquired about their services and had them send us information.... My husband, who I thought would think I was crazy, had already started the process of getting information.... God I love this man!
While we are still praying and are unsure of a lot of things, we want to be obiedient. That is one thing that we have talked about and where we agree that we feel its the wrong timing, evidently God is telling us otherwise! We always knew we wanted to adopt but we thought it would be later in life.
We ask that you pray with us as God leads us through this journey of adoption. We don't know if He is telling us now is the time....or if He is telling us that this is not just something we've dreamed and thought about, but this is really going to happen. If the timing is now, we don't know how we are going to pay for it. so many unknowns but we know that we serve a faituful God. We are terrified and excited all in one! Pray that we are obedient to His word, His timing, His calling... We know that He already has a child for us! Whether that child isn't born yet, or if he/she is already in this world just waiting on us to be obedient.
This song has become a favorite in our house!!!
http://www.godtube.com/watch/?v=WDGYYGNX
He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, “Dear God won't you please
Could you send someone here who will love me?”
Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
'Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means
Her office is shrinking a little each day
She's the woman whose husband has run away
She'll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner
Then he would've stayed
And she says…
Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means
He's waiting to die as he sits all alone
He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home”
Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said
“I know you've murdered and I know you've lied
I have watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I...”
I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love
The love that you never knew
Thia is the song that started the yearn in my heart. About a month ago, we were about to leave to take Darbie to school, and she asked me if we could take the Ipod and listen to Christmas music. Normally, I'd said yes! I LOVE Christmas music and we listen to it often in the car. However, this morning, for what I thought to be an unknown reason, I said no. I didnt know why I said no. I had a conversation back and forth with myself about why I would tel lher no, but I did and I stuck with that decision. About half wya to her school this song came on the radio. Now, I have heard this song a million times and it never spoke to me the way it spoke to me that morning. Tears immediately started streaming down my face. I heard God ever so clearly that morning. He was riding in the passenger seat and He and I were having a conversation. I told him that we were not ready for another child. The timing is wrong. We don't have the money. Hudson is still nursing. Hudson is still not sleeping the greatest. Actually the night before that morning, we were up most of the night because Hudson wasn't sleeping. I was laughing asking God,.... dont You see this????? While our hands are blessed, they are also full at the moment.... Full with an 11 year old who is growing and becoming a young lady.....full with an active 3 year old who is full of energy....and full with a now 1 year old who was at the time still nursing and who is still not sleeping the greatest.....God, WE are not ready yet.... someday.....someday we will be ready.....and He was consistently telling me "yes you are. I will not ask something of you that you can not handle".... that is what I kept getting from Him that morning... Lean on me... I'll give you what you need....Depend on me....Rely on me.... Let me bless you like no one else can.....
I wiped my eyes and told Darbie to have a wonderful day and back home we went.... the thought kept nagging at me but I started believing that it was me just dreaming.... I did just not get a good nights rest... we were up most of the night... I was just sleepy....groggy....
I didn't say anything to anyone for about a week. But God kept laying it on my heart....NOW NOW NOW is what I felt like he was telling me... I laughed one day and said Tim will shoot me if I bring this up to him....so I didn't... I let a few more days pass by and Tim had duty one night so I decided to email him everything... I'm better at writing than speaking my feelings sometimes and I didnt have to see the crazy look on his face as he was reading it! So I sent him an email explaining just as I have here and I didnt get any response back from him... He came home the next day and said nothing about the email... .I said...."you see God... he thinks I am C-R-A-Z-Y!!!" The night before Thanksgiving, I was sitting at the counter and he was in the kitchen and he looks over to me and nonchalantly says "have you ever thought that maybe we would adopt a child with special needs?" I started with all of the statistics of special needs... all of the problems that could happen.... al lof the negatives when God stopped me dead in my tracks... "'Terra....this is not your plan...its Mine...." Wow what a thought to slap you in the face... On Thanksgiving Day, I went to check the mail and there were two big enevelopes in there... As I was walking back to the ouse I looked at the return address label to see that they were from Bethany Christian Services... I said "Ok God, I get it! I didnt order these... and I know Tim didn't....so we'll get on it... but lead us please!" I got back to the house and told Tim that somehow we received some stuff from Bethany Christian Services....only to find that he had been doing a lot of research and had inquired about their services and had them send us information.... My husband, who I thought would think I was crazy, had already started the process of getting information.... God I love this man!
While we are still praying and are unsure of a lot of things, we want to be obiedient. That is one thing that we have talked about and where we agree that we feel its the wrong timing, evidently God is telling us otherwise! We always knew we wanted to adopt but we thought it would be later in life.
We ask that you pray with us as God leads us through this journey of adoption. We don't know if He is telling us now is the time....or if He is telling us that this is not just something we've dreamed and thought about, but this is really going to happen. If the timing is now, we don't know how we are going to pay for it. so many unknowns but we know that we serve a faituful God. We are terrified and excited all in one! Pray that we are obedient to His word, His timing, His calling... We know that He already has a child for us! Whether that child isn't born yet, or if he/she is already in this world just waiting on us to be obedient.
This song has become a favorite in our house!!!
http://www.godtube.com/watch/?v=WDGYYGNX
Monday, December 10, 2012
Hudson turns 1!
Dearest little man,
I can't believe I am sitting here typing your one year birthday letter. You are tucked tightly in your bed fast asleep. You are actually one year and 5 days old but I wanted to wait until your birthday party before I posted this. It has been an amazing year with you buddy! To think that daddy and I were not wanting any more children after your two sisters. God knew what He was doing and He knew what kind of a blessing you were going to be to us! I am sooo happy He saw daddy and I fit to be your parents! I think back on the year we've had. You were born on the 5th. Our house was packed on the 7 and 8th of December. We said goodbye to all of our friends in Charleston on the 11th of December and headed to VA to our new home state. I have pictures of everyone in Charleston holding you. They were there to watch you grow in mommy's tummy and they were there to welcome you into this world! Mommy misses our friends from SC daily and I think of all of the friends you would have had there! But, the US Navy called us to VA and we moved here and took on a whole new adventure. You soon met people here that we now call our friends! These people have watched you grow from just an infant and many love you like their own. What's not to love about your big toothy grin???
Let's see...... you now have 5 teeth and we think you maybe working on your 6th. You have three up top and two on the bottom. I am in the process of weaning you completely. We were down to just our nightly feeding until tonight and I decided the longer I waited, the harder it was going to be so tonight I fixed you a sippy of milk and went to rock you, but you would have nothing to do with that sippy. You didn't fight me. You took your paci and snuggled against my chest and fell fast asleep. I hope you sleep through the night becasue right now I am worried that you are hungry. You have gotten nursed at bedtime every single night since you were born. (Either nursed or a bottle at bedtime) So, hopefully you sleep all night and hoepfully the last weaning is as easy as it was tonight. I was worried in the beginning of weaning you that you wasn't ready. However, you have been a champ and have not looked back. It kind of makes me sad but it also lets me know that it was me not ready instead of you not being ready. We did it buddy! We made it longer than I ever thought we would and I am soooo happy we did!
You weight 24 pounds and I'm not sure how tall you are right now. You don't have your one year well baby until jan. 7th. =(
You are babbling up a storm. Yu can say mama, dada, bye, hi, and you've said Bry Bry on several occasions when looking at Brylee. Tonight I said "all done" and you copied it clear as day! You love talking and you love smiling! You light up anyone you are around! You have quickly become a daddy's boy and you love when he comes home from work! You love boy toys, which amazes me....How do you know what boy toys are??? you have a house full of barbies??? =)
You are still very tempermental and have a temper like nobody's business! Daddy and I are still trying to figure out how to handle this temper of yours.
You are the biggest cuddler and a huge flirt with the ladies! Your big blue eyes and big handsome grin melts their hearts!
You love to play peek a boo!
You are full of personality and life!
This past year has been a huge blessing and I am soo happy and honored that I get to be called mommy!
Here are some pictures over the last year!
Just moments after you were born!
happy 9 months!
Happy 1 year birthday buddy!!!!!
We love you more than words can ever express!
Love always,
Mommy and Daddy
I can't believe I am sitting here typing your one year birthday letter. You are tucked tightly in your bed fast asleep. You are actually one year and 5 days old but I wanted to wait until your birthday party before I posted this. It has been an amazing year with you buddy! To think that daddy and I were not wanting any more children after your two sisters. God knew what He was doing and He knew what kind of a blessing you were going to be to us! I am sooo happy He saw daddy and I fit to be your parents! I think back on the year we've had. You were born on the 5th. Our house was packed on the 7 and 8th of December. We said goodbye to all of our friends in Charleston on the 11th of December and headed to VA to our new home state. I have pictures of everyone in Charleston holding you. They were there to watch you grow in mommy's tummy and they were there to welcome you into this world! Mommy misses our friends from SC daily and I think of all of the friends you would have had there! But, the US Navy called us to VA and we moved here and took on a whole new adventure. You soon met people here that we now call our friends! These people have watched you grow from just an infant and many love you like their own. What's not to love about your big toothy grin???
Let's see...... you now have 5 teeth and we think you maybe working on your 6th. You have three up top and two on the bottom. I am in the process of weaning you completely. We were down to just our nightly feeding until tonight and I decided the longer I waited, the harder it was going to be so tonight I fixed you a sippy of milk and went to rock you, but you would have nothing to do with that sippy. You didn't fight me. You took your paci and snuggled against my chest and fell fast asleep. I hope you sleep through the night becasue right now I am worried that you are hungry. You have gotten nursed at bedtime every single night since you were born. (Either nursed or a bottle at bedtime) So, hopefully you sleep all night and hoepfully the last weaning is as easy as it was tonight. I was worried in the beginning of weaning you that you wasn't ready. However, you have been a champ and have not looked back. It kind of makes me sad but it also lets me know that it was me not ready instead of you not being ready. We did it buddy! We made it longer than I ever thought we would and I am soooo happy we did!
You weight 24 pounds and I'm not sure how tall you are right now. You don't have your one year well baby until jan. 7th. =(
You are babbling up a storm. Yu can say mama, dada, bye, hi, and you've said Bry Bry on several occasions when looking at Brylee. Tonight I said "all done" and you copied it clear as day! You love talking and you love smiling! You light up anyone you are around! You have quickly become a daddy's boy and you love when he comes home from work! You love boy toys, which amazes me....How do you know what boy toys are??? you have a house full of barbies??? =)
You are still very tempermental and have a temper like nobody's business! Daddy and I are still trying to figure out how to handle this temper of yours.
You are the biggest cuddler and a huge flirt with the ladies! Your big blue eyes and big handsome grin melts their hearts!
You love to play peek a boo!
You are full of personality and life!
This past year has been a huge blessing and I am soo happy and honored that I get to be called mommy!
Here are some pictures over the last year!
Just moments after you were born!
happy 3 months!
happy 6 months!
happy 9 months!
Happy 1 year birthday buddy!!!!!
We love you more than words can ever express!
Love always,
Mommy and Daddy
Friday, November 16, 2012
Do all good things come to an end???
Ad I sit here, I don't even know where to start. Breastfeeding was a personal choice for me. When I was pregnant with Brylee, I said I would give it a try and if it worked it worked and if it didn't, it didn't. I wasnt going to loose sleep over it. Well, she latched on first time and never had any trouble. I nursed her until she was pushing 14 months and decided it was time to stop. We never had any issues and I LOVED it! When Hudson came along, there was no choice to make. I knew I would breastfeed him and in my mind we wouldnt have any issues. I knew what I was doing and had resrouces if he didn't latch on. I was confident. He was born at 4:16 pm and started nursing right away and nursed pretty much for the first 6 hours of his life. He quickly became a professional nurser his first day of life! As his first birthday is approaching oh so quickly and I'm thinking it's time to stop, I just want to cry. My mind is ready but my heart is not. How can you have such a love/hate relationship with something.....So we started out nursing and for the first 8 weeks of his life no one got any sleep. He screamed and screamed and screamed. When we finally got to VA and went to the doctor, the first thing she suggested was putting him on formula. (Now, we LOVE our doctor, but she isn't a big supporter of bresatfeeding=() I quickly told her that wasn't an option so we had to figure something else out....A few weeks later, we headed to the GI doctor for the first time. After looking at his charts and examining him and listening to all we had to say, he told us that we probably wasnt dealing with reflux (which is what Tim and I thought it was) and we were probably dealing with food allergies. And guess what he suggested.... yep, formula...and expensive formula at that! Oh, and in between visiting our doctor for the first time and seeing the GI, I gave in one night and Tim and I headed to Target to get formula. I cried most of the way to get it....hated standing there trying to pick from the 20 different brands and kinds...and I hated giving it to him... I was secretly happy when putting him on the formula made no difference in his screaming fits and sleepless days and nights...I kept pumping during this time to not loose my supply. We quickly went back to soley nursing and there was a lot of crying coming from this mama.... Anways, back to the GI... he said our best bet was to put him on formula... When I bursted out in tears in his office he told me that I had given him 8 good weeks of nursing and thats more than a lot of babies get... yadda yadda yadda.... Then I started feeling liek what one of the best gifts God gave me for my baby wasnt adequate and why wasn't it good enough... what did it hurt him so badly... a million thoughts ran through my mind as I sat there staring at Tim wondering what he was thinking and wondering what really was the best thing for our precious son. I quickly made up my mind that so be it if he had food allergies, I could do this.... The doctor told me it would be hard and most mothers didnt do it because of the strict diet I would have to be on. My thoughts were if he did indeed have food allergies and didn't outgrow them, I would have to learn how to cook to suit him anyways, so why not give it a try now. And it was hard! For 6 weeks I went on an allergy free diet and then we had to add things in one by one to see if he reacted. And when he did react, I felt like the worse mom ever. Anyways, we finally got everything figured out and was sailing smoothly again!
(Didnt mean to go off in that direction... I feel like some days I have ADD like nobody's business!)
So, back to bresatfeeding comind to an end...I have to say that during this past year, there have been days that I dreamed of stopping nursing. I have wanted to be selfish and eat what I wanted. I have craved chineese food like nothing else! We've been to get togethers and I've looked at foods I couldnt have and just wished that I was done with this. I didn't want him to grow up. I didn't want to put him on formula. I just wanted to be done nursing in that moment. there have been nights when he has nursed every 2 hours and I was exhausted and wanted to stop. He nursed ever hour and forty five minutes to every 2 hours until he was 8 months old. I felt like I was an open buffet 24 hours a day. I was half naked more than I've been dressed in this last year. At times, I wished I could have moved to a nudist colony or to Africa, where it's the norm for woman to be able to just go free up top. Tim has seen my chest more in this last year than the 6 years we have been married combined! And let me say Hudson, he has loved you for that! =) Although I do not want to be the next Time magazine cover mom, I am just not quite ready to give it up i don't think. But, I probably will. It's time for him to be a big boy and it's time for me to have me back. I know I have given him a good 12 months of breast milk and that has been amazing, especially when there were days I didnt know how much longer I could do it. I've made it! When the GI doctor asked me at his 6 month check up how much longer I was going to do it and I said until he is one and he looked at me like I was crazy... I was sooo proud of myself when we were there last week and he asked if he was still nursing and I said YES! He is starting to self wean during the day and he only nurses for a few minutes and feedings are pretty far between. He sitll loves to nurse first thing in the mornings, and right before bed...and during the night when he has a rough night. I am not ready to give up the fact that a boob in his mouth can fix anything! He is a comfort nurser and I don't know if thats the boy in him or if it's just him. I want to cry thinking that this is one constant thing he knows and it's all he knows and to think I am going to take this away from him makes me want to cry...He has been put on a prescrition milk until he is 18 months old and at that point we will try whole cow's milk. We have started introducing him to this milk and he is doing ok with it in his sippy. He is not fond of it in a bottle I dont think. So here we are...it's so bittersweet to me to be coming up on ending this fabulous thing that I have loved and hated at the same time.
Hudson, I look at you and i see how big you have gotten and how healthy you are and I know that I did the best thing I could have done for you. Some of my most favorite memories will always be sitting in your room in the dark, listening to KLove, and nursing you. Over this past year, you have gone from being an 8lb little baby that when I nursed you, your whole body was right in front of me to now being almost one and you wrap half way around me when I nurse you. I am going to miss you getting excited when I pull my nursing cover out. You get the biggest grin on your face and it cracks me up! I am going to miss going into your room in the middle of the night and you can latch on in the dark with no problem and you instantly calm down and fall asleep.
I am not going to miss my diet restrictions. I am hoping that you start sleeping through the night when you are fully on your new milk. Im not going to miss worrying about frozen milk when daddy and I are on a date.
I am scared because I don't even know how to begin weaning you. I know it's going to be rough in the beginning. are you ready? am I ready?
This has been the hardest year and it has been the best year. I wouldnt change a single decision I made with nursing you.
I love you buddy and I pray we transition through this new phase easily.
(Didnt mean to go off in that direction... I feel like some days I have ADD like nobody's business!)
So, back to bresatfeeding comind to an end...I have to say that during this past year, there have been days that I dreamed of stopping nursing. I have wanted to be selfish and eat what I wanted. I have craved chineese food like nothing else! We've been to get togethers and I've looked at foods I couldnt have and just wished that I was done with this. I didn't want him to grow up. I didn't want to put him on formula. I just wanted to be done nursing in that moment. there have been nights when he has nursed every 2 hours and I was exhausted and wanted to stop. He nursed ever hour and forty five minutes to every 2 hours until he was 8 months old. I felt like I was an open buffet 24 hours a day. I was half naked more than I've been dressed in this last year. At times, I wished I could have moved to a nudist colony or to Africa, where it's the norm for woman to be able to just go free up top. Tim has seen my chest more in this last year than the 6 years we have been married combined! And let me say Hudson, he has loved you for that! =) Although I do not want to be the next Time magazine cover mom, I am just not quite ready to give it up i don't think. But, I probably will. It's time for him to be a big boy and it's time for me to have me back. I know I have given him a good 12 months of breast milk and that has been amazing, especially when there were days I didnt know how much longer I could do it. I've made it! When the GI doctor asked me at his 6 month check up how much longer I was going to do it and I said until he is one and he looked at me like I was crazy... I was sooo proud of myself when we were there last week and he asked if he was still nursing and I said YES! He is starting to self wean during the day and he only nurses for a few minutes and feedings are pretty far between. He sitll loves to nurse first thing in the mornings, and right before bed...and during the night when he has a rough night. I am not ready to give up the fact that a boob in his mouth can fix anything! He is a comfort nurser and I don't know if thats the boy in him or if it's just him. I want to cry thinking that this is one constant thing he knows and it's all he knows and to think I am going to take this away from him makes me want to cry...He has been put on a prescrition milk until he is 18 months old and at that point we will try whole cow's milk. We have started introducing him to this milk and he is doing ok with it in his sippy. He is not fond of it in a bottle I dont think. So here we are...it's so bittersweet to me to be coming up on ending this fabulous thing that I have loved and hated at the same time.
Hudson, I look at you and i see how big you have gotten and how healthy you are and I know that I did the best thing I could have done for you. Some of my most favorite memories will always be sitting in your room in the dark, listening to KLove, and nursing you. Over this past year, you have gone from being an 8lb little baby that when I nursed you, your whole body was right in front of me to now being almost one and you wrap half way around me when I nurse you. I am going to miss you getting excited when I pull my nursing cover out. You get the biggest grin on your face and it cracks me up! I am going to miss going into your room in the middle of the night and you can latch on in the dark with no problem and you instantly calm down and fall asleep.
I am not going to miss my diet restrictions. I am hoping that you start sleeping through the night when you are fully on your new milk. Im not going to miss worrying about frozen milk when daddy and I are on a date.
I am scared because I don't even know how to begin weaning you. I know it's going to be rough in the beginning. are you ready? am I ready?
This has been the hardest year and it has been the best year. I wouldnt change a single decision I made with nursing you.
I love you buddy and I pray we transition through this new phase easily.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Hudson is 11 months!
I seriously can't believe Hudson was 11 months on Monday! Buddy, you are growing soooo fast and learning something new everyday! Today, you finally took off with crwaling... You have been tinkering with the idea for a few weeks but today at the doctor, you crawled accross the floor to get a Mr. Potato head! Daddy and I were so excited! And then tonight, you have crawled a few times to get soemthing you want! You weigh 21 pounds. You haved bye bye for the first time yesterday morning. You can say hi, daddy, and mama when you want to. You had a follow up with the pediactric gi doctor today and we figured out a few things. As far as your allergies are concerned, eggs still both you severly! You are handling mommy having small amounts of dairy, but we have noticed your excema has come back since I have been having it. We don't know about soy but the doctor said to still lay off of it. Since the flu shot has egg in it, he said to not give it. We have to double check with your one year shots to see if any have egg or not, the doctor wasn't sure. You are being put on a special kind of milk. The doctor doesnt think you rae quite ready for cow milk. Mommy is really struggling with thinking about ending our journey of breastfeeding but I am a little ready. Maybe I am being selfish, but I am ready to have all of my foods back. Part of me says you have gotten 12 good months of breastmilk and you are good to go. The other part of me says this is all that you know and I want to hold on to this moment.... I am ready to get my body back but I am not ready to take what you know away from you =( It really is hard. You daddy is VERY supportive during the first 12 months, but after that not so much =) Your sleeping is still different every single night. Some nights you sleep great and other nights you do not. You LOVE to eat food but you are very tempermental with it. If you are sleepy, we can give up trying to get you to eat food. You are still a comfort nurser and I think that is one more thing that worries me about weaning you. You are as handsome as ever and you are soo stinking funny! Daddy and I think you are going to be a class clown as you get bigger. You love when you make someone laugh! You still adore your sisters and smile when they come in the room. You and Brylee love to play together but she doesn't like you drooling on her toys and you get mad when she takes them away from you. You now have 4 teeth... top2 and bottom 2! Welp little man, I think that is about it for now! I can't believe I am about to start planning your 1 year birthday! =(
Love,
Daddy and Mommy
Love,
Daddy and Mommy
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Hudson is growing up!
Can you believe it... I've thoguht to blog without a month brithday =) anyways, as I sit here and type, he is playing with a can of puffs and they are all over the floor... but I dont care because he is quiet and happy... I don't even care if it's quiet but the last few days he has been super cranky and irritable because he is cutting his two top teeth. =( Poor guy. The botton two didnt give him much trouble at all but these top ones are being stinkers!
Last night, daddy had to lower his crib mattress because he is now pulling up on it onto his knees and looking over the railing and I was afraid he was going to fall out on his head =( where have these last almost 11 months gone to? My little man is growing soooooo fast! He is now scooting everywhere and crawling here and there... He can get to whatever he wants with no problem, whether it be by scooting, rolling, or some kidn of crawl/army crawl, belly flop when he's close to his wanted item =)
Last night, daddy had to lower his crib mattress because he is now pulling up on it onto his knees and looking over the railing and I was afraid he was going to fall out on his head =( where have these last almost 11 months gone to? My little man is growing soooooo fast! He is now scooting everywhere and crawling here and there... He can get to whatever he wants with no problem, whether it be by scooting, rolling, or some kidn of crawl/army crawl, belly flop when he's close to his wanted item =)
Darbie plays soccer!
Darbie just finished another season of soccer and I am so sad that I didn't take many pictures this season. With Tim's work schedule being so crazy and me having to take 3 kids to soccer by myself, most of the time I was spent just getting us there on time! But, I did get one or two of her last game! I didn't get one of her scoring a goal because someone, I won't mention names, had to go potty and while we were in the bathroom Darbie scored! =( some dad telling you your daughter scored while you were gone is something ever mom wants to hear....NOT!!!
Hudson trying to stay warm!
My beautiful little princess!
So no good action shots, but here's what I have!
A little blury but it's the only one I got of her with the ball!
This smile can melt anyone's heart!
My beautiful girl with her medal and award!
Hudson trying to stay warm!
My beautiful little princess!
So no good action shots, but here's what I have!
A little blury but it's the only one I got of her with the ball!
This smile can melt anyone's heart!
My beautiful girl with her medal and award!
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