You never promised me that this would be easy
I never knew that anything could be this hard
I wanna trust that You know what You're doin'
But right now, I'm just fallin' apart
It's hard to see it when I'm livin' in the moment
But Your love's still written on my heart
I get lost when I feel the wind blowin'
I gotta cling to who You are
'Cause You are good
Even when You're not understood
No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning outta control
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
I'm leaving doubt and sorrow in the distance
I'm gonna trust, and cast my fears aside
My life's a work that I know You'll finish
I know I'm gonna be alright
It's You I'll chase
Even when I can't see Your face
No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning out of control
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are
And oh, oh, oh, oh
My God is always faithful
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
(My God, my God)
And oh, oh, oh, oh
My God is always faithful
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
(My God, my God)
No matter how many skies fall down
I'm covered under the peace I've found
You're my shelter when there's nowhere else to go
No matter how many times I break
You promise always to keep me safe
You're my rescue when I'm spinning outta control
Lord, you are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are
Oh, You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are faithful, faithful
You are
This song came on tonight as I was rocking Hudson to sleep. I was sitting there, thinking back on the last four years and my journey as a stay at home mom. I was worrying about tomorrow and the days to come. My stay at home mom status came to an end tonight when the board approved my position. And it is very bittersweet.
I have been preparing for this day for many months. When Tim and I started talking about seriously getting out of the Navy and moving back to my hometown, I knew I would go back to work. Tim has sacrificed so much in the last four years for me to be able to stay at home. He has supported me 110%. I knew it would be my time to sacrifice going back to work with him taking a cut in pay to come to Athens to work.
Whoever coined the phrase "the days are long but the years are short" couldn't have been closer to the truth. Days at home with kids aren't always easy. Some days seemed like they would never end. Some days bedtime couldn't get there soon enough. Some days, I may have cried more than I smiled. But then.....most days were better than anything you could ever imagine. Most days, I enjoyed every single thing about being at home. I loved being able to volunteer at Darbie's school. I loved being able to take her to school and pick her up. I loved being at home with Brylee and being able to shuttle her around to activities of her choice. I loved being home with Hudson every single day from the time he was born and watching him change daily into the little boy he is now. I loved being ministered to and ministering to other moms through MOPS. I loved my coffee dates with dear girlfriends. I loved being able to be home when the love of my life walked through the doors after a long day at work. I loved the Bible studies. I have LOVED this season of my life and I will forever cherish it.
Before I became a mom, teaching was my passion. Then I became a mom and being a mom took front seat. I pray that God directs me in this new season of my life and I learn to manage working and being a mom and wife. (and being good at it all)
While the tears have already started flowing, I am so excited about this next chapter in my life! I know the transition is going to be difficult as I will miss my kids oh so much. I pray that they transition well during this new season and we all make it out on the other end happy.
I never regretted walking away from my passion of teaching to be a stay at home mom. I have loved it! So when tomorrow I walk out the door while all of my babies are fast asleep, I will tuck these million memories inside my heart and be thankful. Thankful for the opportunity I have had and for what's to come.
